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Hopelessness or Hope
by William C. Moyers
Out of options. When it happens to people
ravaged by addiction, sometimes all I can offer them is my own encouragement.
"It’s never too late," I tell them. "Don’t let go of
hope."
I can’t help it. What else is there to
say when a child or a spouse or a parent is drowning in alcohol or sinking into
the mire of illegal drugs and there is nothing anyone can do? Hope is free, and
I’ve got plenty of it, in part because of my own despair so many years ago,
just before I finally got clean and sober. But I know there are times when I’m
guilty of irrational exuberance, as if my own willpower somehow could prove to
be the antidote to the inevitable reality that some people just aren’t going
to make it.
Such is the reminder I got in an e-mail
from a woman who reached out to me hoping to help her friend.
Dear Mr. Moyers:
I don’t have an addiction problem. But
I’ve seen firsthand what alcoholism can do to someone. It’s not a pretty
sight. This woman I know was a friend of mine for many years before I realized
she was an alcoholic. I tried to help her, but she was taken to rehab and then
was declared mentally incompetent and put in a nursing home. She won’t give me
the time of day now; she’s angry at me for whatever reasons she has. It’s
sad in a way, but I find I could not care less anymore because she has no good
reason to be angry. I wonder whether she is in denial about her alcoholism and
doesn’t want to take any responsibility for it. What do you think?—Sarah L.
in Huntington, Ind.
Dear Sarah:
Sadly, your experience with the alcoholic
in your life is not unique. Often family and friends of someone who’s in a
crisis would do anything to help but suddenly discover they get nothing in
return but anger or rejection from that person. That’s a wicked edge to the
pain of addiction.
The denial is such that helpers are driven
to hopelessness because of their inability to stop the insanity. I am sure that
your friend would feel differently if her illness were cancer and you had pushed
hard to get her help. It appears you can do nothing now, so step back and take
care of your own needs. Your best intentions cannot overcome her inability to
see the truth. While alcoholism isn’t her fault, she has no one to blame but
herself if she isn’t prepared to accept responsibility for getting help. You
are powerless to change her.
I recently wrote about a woman from
Virginia, Anne N., who has struggled to find any joy in her life after a year of
sobriety. She even was contemplating getting drunk again.
In response, Kim O. in Kenosha, Wis., asked
me to pass this along to her:
"Anne, I couldn’t help thinking back
to my first year of sobriety. Like you, I felt life wasn’t fair. I quit
drinking, so how come nothing was going my way? My bills were still there; my
family and friends still kept their distance; and I couldn’t find a job. Life
seemed no better. Nothing had changed except the fact that I didn’t drink.
Sobriety didn’t seem worth it. As you approach your sobriety anniversary,
consider how much you already have given to addiction — everything that seems
to have mattered in your life. But you still have plenty to lose: the courage,
strength, willpower and time you already have put into your sobriety. What is
more time going to cost you? Sobriety is worth it, and you are worth sobriety.
Even a bad day sober is better than a good day drunk. I pray that you, too, will
smile again. I celebrated my first year with lobster and steak; it cost
less!"
As Sarah underscores, hopelessness carries
a steep price. But Kim reminds us that hope is free and invaluable.
William C. Moyers is the vice president of
external affairs for the Hazelden Foundation and the author of
"Broken," his best-selling memoirs. Please send your questions to
William Moyers at William@WilliamMoyers.com. To find out more about William
Moyers and read his past columns, visit the Creators Syndicate Web page at
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